Hold Me Steady

When The Tempest blows

God, still this wrestling heart, the flesh that is in me and hurting, the Spirit that knows it is well. The sorrow that has latched on, the thoughts that are ghost whispers, the tears that burn my face, the smile that tries to mask their escape. The breath that shares my burden, the body that feels so heavy. The eyes that just want to turn it all off and wait for it to pass.  The outside pressure that I can’t give in, the inside pressure that I can’t keep going. The family that wants me near, but the behavior that pushes me away. The friends that say I’m not alone, the quiet house that says I am. Still my boat on the waters, let me trust past my doubts, let me understand more than I do and wait only in you.  When my shoulders can’t take the weight, hold me up, hold me near, hold me steady.  When the walls are closing in, bind me in your Presence.  Don’t let me fall beyond the place of despair….even there, give me your grounding to pull me back, a firm foundation that sustains my downcast body.  Let me lie still by the meadow and be refilled by the sounds of nature, walking out your plan even though my world has halted.  Refill me with the things that last and never perish.  Pour in the vacant holes that torment me with the emptiness and keep the darkness in me.  Let your light permeate through my soul.